Once I met my husband all of that changed. I need to be clear that that wasn't his fault in any way. It just was my dysfunctional codependency making his needs and wants more important so that he would love me. All the "ME Time" went by the wayside.
Does my husband love me? Absolutely. Twenty years have gone by and our love has grown and matured in so many ways after three children, a failed business endeavor, bankruptcy, and the death of loved ones. But these stresses have torn me down mainly because I didn't take care of me in the process. I now know that the most important thing is to take a little time out of everyday to nurture my body, mind, and soul. Only then can I be the woman (mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend, teacher, choreographer, and performer) that I truly want to be...someone who is gracious, loving, generous, giving, articulate, confident, and humble.
So that is my mission during my hiatus from project work right now...everyday I am going to do something that nurtures my mind, body, and soul. So far, today, I worked out, I nested by cleaning my home, I spent time with each of my children, I laid on the couch and cuddled with my husband while watching our favorite TV show, I read a daily passage from my bible, I cooked my family a healthy and delicious dinner, and now I am sharing my thoughts here on this blog...hopefully, paying it forward to someone else who might find insight or comfort in my words.
I hope that any of you out there in Internet Land take time for yourself today, and learn that loving yourself first is what makes you the best person that you can be.
Here is my baby girl Angie and I, laying down for some cuddle time before bed.
I love this little minx with all of my heart.
My beautiful friend: I am so happy that you are taking time for yourself. Take care of "you" my friend. When you are ready to take me up on those celebratory drinks, you know where you can find me. I'll be waiting, with a yummy fru-fru drink in hand. I love you girl!
ReplyDeleteI love you, my dear friend. Definitely, let's plan a pool party for this summer :D
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