The Dancing Pixie - Live and in Color: November 2013

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

To Blog or Not to Blog

When I started this blog three years ago, I didn't understand exactly where the journey of blogging would take me. I saw it as a way to discuss my choreographic process while starting a collaborative dance company with colleagues and friends. I didn't realize the emotional refuge this blog would become or the anxiety it would give me to share dark thoughts online for the world to criticize. Sharing has been cathartic, but very painful....almost like peeling the skin from third degree burns. So I've been debating, do I continue to blog? As I have come to terms with my artistic decisions, and grieved the loss of dreams and friends....I am happy to say that I love the idea of blogging more now than I ever have in the past, as I feel like a wounded warrior who has come home much wiser.

I am taking a hiatus from choreography, choosing to be an observer of life for a while, I've enrolled in Graduate Studies in Education...continuing to test boundaries and enhance my love for teaching. Dance Pedagogy and the environment in which we choose to train dancers is now a vast landscape of debate and analysis for me. I'm also focusing on observing more art, film, dance and theater. Trying to find the love again...with that, comes my own journey of learning to move this very different body, after four surgeries and three babies. Martha Graham and Twyla Tharp continue to inspire me with there longevity as female dance artists. There is a lot to explore, and hopefully even more to share here online. Thank you....for sticking with me through these last few years. I know this journey hasn't been an easy one to witness, but I do appreciate all of the words of encouragement and nudges to keep putting one foot in front of the other.

So I leave you with this beautiful image that I was able to witness in person recently at the Zellerbach Theatre, UC Berkeley. It is Netherlands Dance Theatre. Truly the only word to describe them and their beautiful dancers is PERFECTION. Peace and love to the blogging world. xoxo...

Netherlands Dance Theatre

Who I am?

First and foremost, I am Mommy to my not always sparkling clean rugrats and Damsel in Distress to my lovably grumpy husband.

But I am also a professional dancer, teacher, and choreographer who loves to write about life and all its wonderful experiences. I love to read, watch films, and aspire to be a great cook, though I still have occasional disasters in the kitchen.

I believe in living life to it's fullest with honesty and integrity and hope to be the best example possible for my children (still trying to live up to these expectations). My advice?? Dance whenever possible, always look towards the sun, and Carpe Diem!