I'm noticing a pattern in my life. It goes something like this. Constant schedule, focused and in control, acceleration of speed, high stress, anxiety, emotional outbreaks, out of control speed, loss of control, psychological breakdown, crash, lethargic state, depression, daze, reawaken, back on schedule....cycle repeats. Can anyone else relate to this???
I'm making a conscious choice to try and break the cycle, or to at least handle the cycle differently. I'm taking inspiration from the famous blogger Julie Powell of "Julie and Julia" fame, who went on a mission to complete 524 Recipes in 365 days. I, unfortunately, don't trust myself that I could complete a mission for a whole year. Call me pessimistic...or realistic, ha. Rather, I'm going to take baby steps. I once read that it takes repeating something for 15 days to make it a habit. I'm banking on that philosophy to complete my challenge. That way if I succeed at 15 days, then maybe I can continue for more.
So for 15 days I am going to try and meditate. As this is a completely foreign process for me on the purest sense ( I've studied yoga, have a believe in spiritual faith, am educated in relaxing exercises, etc., but never truthfully practiced meditation on a regular basis)...I know this will be a struggle. But I'm in a point of my life where I feel a heightened sense of desperation and am hoping that meditation could be my salvation.
So let the mission begin....
