Filling my glass

Do you believe the glass is half full, or half empty?  For years, I've considered myself as viewing the glass half full.  I've always told others to look to the bright side, to follow their dreams, to lead with their hearts, and to accept the world with open arms.  What I'm recognizing now is that I've been helping or guiding others, using my energy to help fix them.  To please them.  Yup, the big 'ole people-pleaser.  That's me.  The world can be absolutely harmonious, and I will pick out the one thing that doesn't seem right and try to fix it.   In fact, I obsess about it until I figure out how to fix it.  And if I can't fix it, then I punish myself and turn that energy into self-loathing for disappointing others.  Crazy, huh?  Where does this come from, this self-loathing, this insecurity?  I truthfully don't know....  What I do know, is that these feelings are why I create art through dance.  Because it's the only way that I can make sense of my emotions...  So, I recognize that the glass is half empty.  But I'm working towards making it full.